I slithered out of the Chrysalis
The all knowing Raven chuckled
“You have not yet devolved.”
“You will be back”
thought briefly I should snap its neck
But he was stronger than I could ever be.
I parted the veil
And entered the night
Darkness is a gift
To be treasured.
A blanket of false deceit
Truth’s revelation.
The light lies
Darkness knows all
The cold air
Washes over me
A brief stilling of molecular motion.
The caress of an icy hand
Tells me
“Warmth makes you sleep”
“She is the false touch”
The Cold is Dark’s friend
Not so secret lovers
Eternally conspiring
I knew I was trespassing
Treading paths not meant for me
Yet I felt the need
To see
To feel
This abandoned Playground
Sleeping Mannequins
Being recharged
Reprogrammed
New dialogue being written by wraiths
Their toothless smiles planning new heartaches
A child will be raped on this stage
A human heart will stop beating
I could not stop it
Tears froze
I slithered back into the Chrysalis
The all knowing Raven chuckled
“I knew you would be back”
“You have not yet devolved”
I wanted to snap its neck
But he was stronger than I could ever be
Archive for November 22nd, 2009
My Butterfly
Sunday, November 22nd, 2009I sit in my garden why I don’t know
For it is steeped in blankets of new fallen snow.
Naked trees clothed in sheets of ice
The landscape is beauty filled with sunlight and white.
Winter doth grips my heart so
The tears and the sadness from my soul flow.
But the beauty and promise.
That soon… my sweet butterfly will show…
I am not given to speaking words that are sweet
I am blacker than madness from the demons I meet.
The battles that rage alone that I fight,
There is no moon in the darkness of my night.
It is beauty and love that I do indeed seek…
Where is my butterfly? So humble…so meek.
Winter unclenches its furious grip
It is sweet spring from whose cup I now sip
Fervently I wish from the seeds that I sow,
Soon…yes soon my sweet butterfly will show.
I patiently wait alone in my chair
My garden has grown at which now I do stare
The flowers they bloom, through love and my care
But where is my butterfly? so pretty so fair.
Her gossamer wings alight on my plants,
My heart races to a beat that enchants.
I am stricken by madness, with a heart that so yearns
My beautiful Butterfly indeed has returned.
You can not touch beauty; it is but a wisp of smoke
Clutch as you may tis but a dream you invoke
It can only be seen and loved from afar
Alas…..if I could… share the words that we spoke.
I watch in sweet bliss as she does her dance
Hopping from flower, from flower to plant
I smile and nod as her beauty unfolds
Ahhh the story of love that she told.
The trees cry leaves which tumble to the ground
With a wistful, wishful, whispering sound.
Autumn has come it cannot be denied
The green of the grass cries as it dies
The seasons impose their will upon all.
My eyes which do tear
And a heart that does yearn
That my sweet, sweet, butterfly will someday return.
Apple Scented Madness
Sunday, November 22nd, 2009I suddenly became aware I was
Distinct
Separate
Alive
Covered in blood
Wondering
What it was
This
Thing
Called life
I heard the cries of aborted fetuses
Seeking repentance
Seeking absolution
For imagined crimes.
Their sin
Inconvenience
There wails drowned
Muted and masked
By heavy machinery
Operated by manic thought police
Dressed as sailors
Carrying hypodermics
Filled with mind fuck
I was to be the trained seal
In the circus of garbage
They didn’t know
I was broken, incomplete
I escaped to
The nightmare of the real
It was not really reality
Nor was it Lies
It was a halcyon era of apple scented madness
Laced with truss rods of greased despair
Blindfolded visions of genetically altered circus midgets
Playing mime to blind audiences
Painted virgins with jism stained dollar bills
Rolled, shaken
And stirred
Inserted Into for sale orifices
The screams of severed heads pleading for body complete
Mutated Pheasants armed with automatics
Butt fucking hunters who scream why?
The dead become annoyed
Seeking eternal rest
Screeching alarm clocks
Awaken them
As the sadistic Gods laugh
Pissed off Zombies crying “Brains”
Can’t find any
Bankers molesting children
Lawyers blowing bankers
Politicians laugh a creaking rusty hinged sound
Sightless lovers seeking fulfillment
Feeling only whores and lies
Mirrors offer no comfort
That swirling mist of promised magic
Merely confirmed who we are not
Truth that cheap FILTHY WHORE
Screams orgasmic shouts and moans
Body quivering
Pretending
She is not a willing sacrifice at the altar of convenience
The victim of lie’s serpent tongued promises?
Engulfed in an ill-fitted black robe of the lonely heart
They are all out of solace
Tears always pave the path to surrender
Emotions seethe and boil
Critical mass reached.
I no longer sleep in a bed.
Beds are for faggots
There can be no comfort here
I roll on the floor
At home with roaches and the denizens of the night
Leathery wings Play serrated whip saw sounds
Only I can hear
The sounds of bare survival
They laugh at joy
Chittering knowing words
They speak
Whispering
“You do not belong
You never did”
Yet they call me back
“YOU WILL JOIN US!”
The sound of cocked pistols
And lawyer lies
Congealed like Hyenas
Barking on an asphalt parking lot
Baby’s heads greasing the treads of wheeled deceit
Yet their vampire smiles
No longer frighten me
“YOU WILL JOIN US!”
The Zombie choir sings
Feigning Mozart
They do not suffer alienation
The law of lies and madness will prevail
No sanctification
No absolution
I ignore them all
Mere tuneless wind chimes
Playing discordant existential sounds of phony despair
Death knocks at my door
He claims us all as his own
He drips drool like Pavlov’s dog
I smile
I have been seeking you Death
Your lies stink
How can you claim one
Who has never lived?
His steps falter
His sickle
Becomes
A broom
And I charge him to sweep the pain from this World
The though police
Captured me
Finally
Kafka was the judge and jury
I was convicted
Of seeking meaning in the meaningless
“Don’t you know?” he laughed
“Life is just a halcyon era of apple scented madness”